Road To San Michelé: February 2012

Firstly, I have to say....I'm soooo sorry for being so very very lax with this blog. I'm definitely going to change that from now on. The problem was that I wasn't feeling too well the past 2 months, and the reason is:

So, like the piece I'm going to post on FB:

For those that don't know yet:
Yes, I'm pregnant.
Yes, we want this baby very much.
No, we're not crazy. Not yet anyway. Maybe in about 6 months time we will be!
No, we're not rich or think children are inexpensive.
No, it wasn't an “accident”. No baby is ever an accident.
No, I'm not too old. Not accordingly to my dr anyway!
Yes, I'm healthy. Yes, baby is healthy.
No, we don't know the gender yet.
No, I don't know (yet) how we're going to handle 4. Any tips?
Yes, our car can take 7 people, so at least that's sorted.
Yes, we have enough rooms in the house to fit baby in somewhere. Would the closet do?

I'm of course over the moon and beyond excited!! :) Only big problem was that I was extremely nauseous. And due to my age, we kept it secret until we knew everything should be allright. I'm now 14 weeks, and it seems like the nausea is slowly starting to improve. I haven't been as tired as with the other pregnancies, which is fabulous. I do have that lack of energy feeling, but not the "my eyes close after lunch all by themselves" feeling. I do sometimes, about once or twice a week, catch an afternoon nap. But with the other pregnancies I fell asleep every afternoon for hours, and then again by 8pm at night. Now, I read until midnight every night, no problem. I really seem to handle pregnancy allot easier the older I get, LOL. Let's hope and pray it lasts for the whole 9 months.

The only other complaint I really have, is the dizzyness. I've fainted quite a few times, twice in shops which was pretty awful, hahahaha. So embarressing!! But, no harm done (except to my fragile ego!). I just have to take things slower, and try not to go shopping for more than about an hour at a time (very limitting). But it's fine, I'll take that any day above the horrors I had to deal with during the first 2 pregnancies, so I'm not really complaining too hard. And with the nausea starting to get better, I really do feel good. Healthy, happy, contend and doing well. Not bad for an old woman, hey?!

The kids are of course, also over the moon. Mr N is cautiously excited. Typical of his personality. We have a saying in Afrikaans which translates to "rather watch the cat out of the tree". He doesn't react rashly, he takes his time to consider all aspects and see how things develop. So in the beginning, he was scared. Now, he's getting excited. But still concerned for me, so sweet.

Monkeyman is very pleased with the fact, and doesn't seem jealous at all. He's quite worried about the baby, and was superexcited when he heard the heartbeat the first time. It seems to really mean something to him. As if he really got it, the moment he heard that heartbeat. And just today, he told me "your tummy is getting a little bigger now". LOL, so he notices baby grows, and he's excited at the prospect of holding a baby "soon". (He complains that it's taking too long!) He's always loved babies, fortunately. Loved holding them. Only problem is, he wants a brother! He says he needs another brother, LOL.

Boeboe, of course, wants a sister! She begs and pleads in her prayers every night that baby will be a little girl. She's really sooooo excited and really, really, really happy about this baby. She cried when I told her it will be our last, because after this I'm asking the dr to fix me so that I can't have any more babies (like our dog, LOL). She seems to understand, but she would've loved having LOTS more baby sisters and brothers. Wish I could grant her wish, shame. At least she gets to have one more go at being the big sister. For her sake, I hope it's a little girl. She's going to be such a help, I know I'm going to have to fight her on having turns to hold and bath and dress our baby! :)

Usually, I had dreams about my babies, so I knew their genders from pretty early on. I had strong feelings/instincts about it, and I've always been right. This time, I just don't have that strong instinct, and I don't dream about the baby!! Strange. My guess would be it's a little girl, but I think it's more wishful thinking than instinct. So we'll have to just wait and see. I was more worried about Spina Bifida of course, than the gender. I took mega doses of folic acid so the dr is pretty sure baby is fine. The sonars shows a perfect little spine, so for now, we'll just have to believe baby will be okay.

So that's what's up in our life. All that happened the past 2 months, was holiday!!! I was quite grateful that it was school holiday so that I could just feel ill in peace without having to cart the kids around, help them study for exams and with homework! Unfortunately, school has now started up again. Boeboe is now grade 3, and though it started off very difficult with them needing to suddenly write in cursive language, she's now doing much better. She's really surprising me, and I'm starting to really relax about her. She's tough enough to overcome any obstacle in her life, even though she may not know it yet. Only worries with her is that she's complaining about back and leg pain these days. The backpain is disturbing. I'm almost having small panick attacks everytime I think about it, but for now I'm just keeping an eye on it before overreacting too soon. Thank goodness she herself decided sport and dancing activities is too hard on her, so she chose Art as her afterschool activity this year. She had her first class, and enjoyed it sooooo much. I'm so relieved she found something that is just hers. Not following in Mr N's footsteps or trying to be as good as he is in something.

Mr N is now grade 5, and still like a fish in water. No problems, except that his meds (I think!) is making him a bit craggy. But we'll sort that out. He's doing so well in school. Nothing is too difficult, and he's always doing most of his work during school hours, which leaves him with almost no homework in the afternoons. Just amazing, I don't know how he does it, but there's no complaints from the teachers (yet) so I have to assume he's doing fine. I wish Boeboe could've had life as easy as he has it.

Monkeyman has started school and it didn't go so well in the beginning. So I left him home for 2 weeks, and then took him again last week and today. And wow, suddenly he loves it! I took him on a day when there were only 8 other kids at school, and I believe that made ALL the difference. He has since asked to go to school every day, but I decided to only take him once a week, for now. Today, he did so well, he told me I could leave him there. So I did (feeling VERY sorry for myself, LOL). I went shopping for an hour, and when I got back, he was just a happy little camper amongst his friends. He's just suddenly READY. I knew it! I knew I just had to wait, that we'll both know when he's ready. My husband kept on telling me that, but typical mom, I still worried. Well, it was unnecessary. The only worry I have with our little monkey, is that ANOTHER 2 teeth broke. Sniff sniff. I'm sooooo sad about it, and he's really upset that I want to take him to the dentist. But I have to, it's turning all green now. It's the 2 next to the 2 that was fixed less than a year ago. That was build up with pins. I'm pretty sure we're going to have to walk the same road again with this 2 as well. So then all the frontal top teeth will be "fake" teeth. Aijaijai, poor thing. :(

Another reason I was so quiet, is because my laptop broke, and our PC gave problems. It was quite a struggle. Everything is still not working as well as it should.

Well, here's some holiday pictures.