Aanhalings deur mnr Pretorius

Hier wil ek nou direk verdere sinne wat mnr Pretorius op sy blog geplaas het, aanspreek. Dis onmoontlik om als uit te lig, so ek het maar die wat my die meeste opgeval het, gekies.

Mnr Pretorius: “...wil ek dit stel dat niemand weet wie God Almagtig regtig is nie...Wat ek wel vir u kan sê is dat dit nie die God van die Bybel kan wees nie....”

En tog, dis presies wie God Almagtig regtig is. Mnr Pretorius glo en vertrou nie die Bybel, of die God van die Bybel nie. Maar ons wat doen, weet dat die Almagtige God, Skepper van Hemel en Aarde, een en dieselfde God is, soos Johannes 1 vir ons verduidelik.

Die vreemde ding is dat mnr Pretorius geleer het DAT daar 'n God "Almagtig" is, deur die einste Bybel. Die meerderheid van sy kerk, familie, skool en gemeenskap het waarskynlik dit geglo en dit so verkondig. UIT DIE BYBEL UIT. 

So hoekom nou vertel daardie einste Bybel was reg, daar IS 'n God Almagtig, maar ook verkeerd, dis nie die Bybel s'n nie? Dis werklikwaar ontsettend vreemd vir my.


Mnr Pretorius: “...En nee, sy naam is beslis ook nie Yahweh nie...”

Jip. Sy Naam is wel YHWH in Hebreeuse letters, wat beteken: “Ek is wat ek is”.
Ou Hebreeus het nie klinkers gehad nie. Later, toe dit bykom, het hulle YHWH begin uitspreek as Yahweh. Toe Jesus kom, het Hy waarskynlik heelwat tale verstaan en gebruik. Grieks, Aramees, Hebreeus, ens. Hy was in Grieks, Iesus genoem, maar in Hebreeus was die klanke waarskynlik meer Yahshua. Dit kom direk van YHWH af. YaHWshuaH.

My eie doopnaam word NIE dieselfde uitgespreek deur Engelse, as deur Afrikaners nie. Absoluut GEEN anderstalige kon nog OOIT my naam korrek uitspreek nie. Nie Engelse of Bantu's of die KhoiSan eers nie. Gewoonlik gee ek dus aan almal eerder my bynaam. Selfs dit spreek hulle vreemd uit. Mens kan dit nie lekker uitmaak nie.

Netso is die Naam “Ek is wat ek is”, of YHWH of Yahshua of Iesus deur baie mense in allerande tale gebruik. Later het die klank wat die Grieke gebruik het vir “Ie” 'n “J” geword. So toe die Bybel in ons taal vertaal is, het hulle by die klank gehou, en nie die spelling nie, soos die gebruik van daardie jare. God is nie 'n moeilike Persoon nie. Inteendeel, Hy is besonders tegemoetkomend, en het werklik nie omgegee nie, want alle tale was in elk geval Sy skepping as gevolg van die toring van Babel se gebeure. So of jy Hom Yeshua of Jesus of Yahwe noem, maak nie 'n verskil werklik nie. Dis 'n geval soos Paulus verduidelik het.... moenie die wat oortuig is dat iets sonde is, sleg sê nie. As hulle byvoorbeeld nie vark wil eet nie, los hulle. Maar weet dat dit nie sonde vir jou is nie. Mense kan daarop aandring dat God slegs YHWH genoem mag word. Maar Hy het direk aan my toestemming gegee dat ek Hom “Jesus” mag bly noem!

Bid dus en besluit self oor die Naam en wat u Hom wil noem. Maar om te verklaar soos mnr Pretorius, dat YHWH nie God se Naam is nie, is net verkeerd.

Mnr Pretorius: “....verstaan dat die wederkoms van die Verlosser van Nibiru af sal kom...”

LOL. Nee. Die teenoorgestelde.

Die “evil” in die wereld, onder leiding van Satan, beplan TWEE “beings”. Twee wesens, wat saam hulle “Messiah” uitmaak.

Die Bybel maak dit duidelik, dat die Koning kom om Vrede te bring en te verklaar aan die wereld, maar ook dat die Koning kom om die wereld met 'n ystervuis te regeer. Christene besef dat dit so in die Bybel gestel was, omdat God toe al geweet het, dit praat van 2 verskillende tydperke. Nie 2 wesens nie, maar 2 tydperke.

Die Elite het egter besluit (onder die Zioniste se aanvoering skat ek), dat dit eintlik beteken dis 2 wesens wat moet kom.

Die een kom om vrede en oorvloed en uitkoms van "slawerny" te verklaar, en is dus soortgelyk as 'n tipe Ben Joseph of Moshe (Moses). Die ander een kom as Koning en om oorlog te voer, en dus is hy van Ben David se essence. “Ben” beteken “Seun van”. Waarskynlik eers die oorlog, dan die "vrede" (en die Bybel waarsku ons, pasop vir die dag waarop hulle vrede aan ons verklaar!).

Die een gaan NES Farao Akhenaten lyk, wat mnr Pretorius (volgense my foutiewelik) glo was Moses van die Bybel gewees. Baie mense, ek ingesluit, het klaar drome en visioene gekry oor hierdie figuur. Wie dit is, en hoe hy werklik die bloedlyn van Akhenaten in sy DNA het. En daardeur “Royalty” gaan beweer.

Ons kan slegs bespiegel hoe als gaan verloop met hierdie Messias-planne van die Elite, of soos ons dit noem, die Antichris, vals profeet en Beeld van die Dier.

Wat dit met “Nibiru” en die “Annunaki” of “aliens” te doen het, sal ons nog moet sien. Wat ons weet is dat dit NIE ons Messias of Redder (Verlosser) is of bring nie. Hulle is NIE ons skeppers nie. Hulle is misleiers wat die mensdom gaan verblind met die wonderwerke en tekens wat hulle kan doen, en die leuens wat hulle gaan vertel.

Hulle gaan waarskynlik nes die Superwesens wees in ons flieks. En aan mense verkonding hulle, die gewone mense, kan ook “nes hulle skeppers” wees. En daardeur gaan mense die merk aanvaar. Die een waarteen ons gewaarsku word, dat dit 'n effek op ons siel gaan hê. Die wat die Antichris of sy beeld aanvaar as hul skepper, verloor hulle Ewige Lewe saam met die ware Almagtige God.

Punt is dus, ons verlosser kom NIE van Nibiru af nie! Wel ons “destroyer”!

Mnr Pretorius: “Die belangrike feit hier is dat ons Vader hierdie Verlosser sal wees en nie Jesus nie.”

Sjoe. Waar om te begin.

Ja, dit KAN en GAAN Jesus wees, want Hy het so gesê. Maar. Die Vader en Seun is Een. Die Vader is Gees. Jesus was beide mensekind en Goddelike Seun. Hy het 'n aardse liggaam gehad. Wat deur Sy Opstanding in 'n Ewige Liggaam verander is. En dis Hy wat gaan terugkom, het die Engel aan ons verklaar. En wanneer Hy kom, gaan die hele aarde skud en bewe, en elke liewe persoon gaan op sy knieë val. En die wêreld gaan treur.

Die vreemde ding is, ek onthou lank terug het mnr Pretorius beweer dat eers kom Jesus terug, dan is dit die 1000 jaar Vrede, daarna eers kom die Vader. Ek onthou hoe vreemd ek hierdie konsep gevind het. Nou beweer hy dat Jesus glad nie meer gaan kom nie, maar net die Vader. En dit nie meer aan die einde nie, maar in die begin van die 1000 jaar, en boonop in 'n UFO vanaf die planeet Nibiru! Jesus het sommer net self opgevaar op die wolke, maar die Vader moet 'n ruimteskip gebruik om af te kom....


Mnr Pretorius: “Dit kan nie Jesus wees nie, want hy was nooit meer as ‘n menslike koning wat deel was van ‘n koninklike bloedlyn wat deur die Anunnaki geskep is om as ‘n buffer tussen hulle en die massas te kon dien nie. Hy was dus die mense op voetsoolvlak se meerdere, omdat hy Anunnaki DNA gedra het, maar darem nog steeds ook die Anunnaki koninklikes se mindere....”

Jesus was definitief baie meer as slegs “'n menslike koning”. Boonop was die Dawidiese bloedlyn uit Shem deur sy seun Arpaksad. Terwyl die Annunaki bloedlyn waarskynlik uit die lyn van Asshur (Assirie) kom van Shem. Nie deur Arpaksad nie.
Ek glo die Bybel wat betref Jesus. Mnr Pretorius glo eerder die Joodse skrywer Zacharia Stitchen.

Zacharia Stitchen was 'n amateur, wat homself Summeries geleer het, en toe tablette vertaal het en aannames gemaak het oor wat dit beteken. Hy was nie 'n opgeleide profesionele taalkundige daarin, of in daardie tydperk nie. Hordes mense het dus intussen bewys hoeveel foute hierdie man gemaak het. Nie slegs Christene nie, maar oorwegend Akademici en kundiges van reg oor die wereld. Daar is heelwat inligting beskikbaar op Youtube, wat Zacharia Stitchen se boeke afmaak en “debunk” as basies nonsens of swak vertalings wat nie die toets van tyd of “scrutiny” deurstaan nie. 

Om dus die Bybel te verwerp en so 'n persoon aan te hang gaan my verstand totaal en al te bowe. Dis egter mnr Pretorius se reg. Maar dis ook my reg om aan my mense uit te wys hoekom hulle versigtig moet wees om enige iets wat deur die Zacharia Stitchen beweer is, as net die waarheid te glo en te aanvaar. Soos hierdie hele idee dat die “Annunaki was aliens wat die mensdom deur kloning geskep het.”

Wikipedia is nie aldag meer betroubaar nie, maar hier is 'n stelling wat wel korrek is, oor die skrywer Zacharia Stitchen:

Sitchin's ideas have been resoundingly rejected by scientists, academics, historians (including Sumerologists, Orientalists and Assyriologists) and anthropologists who dismiss his work as pseudoscience and pseudohistory. His work has been criticized for flawed methodology, ignoring archaeological and historical evidence, and mistranslations of ancient texts as well as for incorrect astronomical and scientific claims.

Ek verwerp hom dus as 'n kenner, wat nog te sê iemand wie se idees bo die Bybel geglo moet word!

Ter interessantheid, kom ek verduidelik hoe maklik foute kan insluip wanneer daar met antieke tale gewerk word. Die Summeriese tablette praat van hoe sekere van hul konings sommer vir 250 000 jaar regeer het. Uit ander bronne (nie slegs die Bybel) weet ons dit is onwaar. Wanneer dit bestudeer word, blyk dit dat verskeie tydperke as 'n “jaar” gesien was deur verskillende groepe van daardie antieke tye. Byvoorbeeld, een groep het 'n siklus van die maan as 'n “jaar” beskryf. Ander het 'n seisoensverandering as 'n nuwe jaar beskou. Ander het die “groei” van die maan (dus 2 weke) as 'n jaar gesien. Ens. So ons kan nie net aanneem 250 000 Summeriese jare op 'n klip tablet, is werklik 250 000 van ons jare van vandag nie!

Hulle het dus beweer hulle konings was “immortal”. Uhm. Nee. Hoewel soos ek bespreek het, weet ons ook uit die Bybel dat daar wel 'n tydperk was waar mense na die Vloed nog vir honderde jare lank geleef het, en onsterfbaar kon voorkom. Maar die Summeriese mense het waarskynlik afgestam uit Shem se een seun, wat Asshur of Assyria genoem was, en afbeweeg het uit Syria uit na die Suidelike dele van Iraq.


Mnr Pretorius: “….en ons lees dat hy (“Jesus”) dood is aan die kruis. Hy is nie, want daar is gesaghebbende inligting wat aandui dat hy lewend afgehaal is en eers jare later oorlede is....”

Die snaakse ding is dat dit JUIS die Romeine was wat hierdie valse storie dat Hy NIE gesterf het nie, versprei het, saam met daardie dae se Joodse families. Ek beskou die Bybel as “gesagshebbend”. Mnr Pretorius beskou ander bronne blykbaar as gesagshebbend. Netsoos hierbo gesien, soos die Joodse skrywer Zacharia Stitchin.


Mnr Pretorius: ”Daar word op verskeie plekke VAN Jesus gesê dat hy die Seun van God is, iets soos 60 van hulle dink ek, maar hy self het dit nooit gesê nie. En toe hy daaroor uitgevra is, en baie hard van hoog af vir ‘n spesifieke antwoord gedruk is, het hy dit soos volg ontken:

MAT 26:63 Maar Jesus het stilgebly. En die hoëpriester antwoord en sê vir Hom: Ek besweer U by die lewende God dat U vir ons sê of U die Christus, die Seun van God, is?

MAT 26:64 Jesus antwoord hom: U het dit gesê.”

Dit kan as bevestigend gesien word. U het dit gesê, u praat die waarheid, u is reg. Hoekom mnr Pretorius dink dit het beteken U het dit gesê... nie ek nie. Dit sal ek nie weet nie. Hoe kan hy dit sommer net aanneem en dit as "bewys" voorhou?

Ek gaan dit ook met 'n teenskrif beantwoord.

Ons lees in Johannes 8:24

Daarom het Ek vir julle gesê julle sal in julle sondes sterwe, want as julle nie glo dat Ek is wat Ek is nie, sal julle in julle sondes sterwe.”

In Engels:
I said therefore unto you, that ye shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins.

Jesus sê dat as hulle nie glo “I AM he”, of “Ek is wat ek is “ nie, gaan hulle in hul sonde sterf. Die mense het onmiddelik besef dat Hy (Jesus) beweer het Hy is YHWH, wat volgens hul gebruike godslasterlik was! En DAAROM wou hulle Hom toe ook doodmaak.

Dus, anders as wat mnr Pretorius beweer, het Jesus WEL aan die mense erken Hy is YHWH. Mens moet egter na die Hebreeuse en Griekse geskrifte en betekenisse kyk om te sien waarop Jesus gesinspeel het, en hoekom die mense onmiddellik besef het wie Jesus beweer Hy is. En waarom Hy gese het Hy kom in Sy Vader se Naam. Want God is Gees, Jesus was die aardse liggaam!

En die rede hoekom Jesus dus nooit self gese het Hy is die Seun van God nie, is omdat Hy YHWH is! Hy kom in Sy Vader se naam. Hy is dus God se Seun. Maar almal in Hom, is wel ook Kinders van God. So Hy is die Vader, die Seun en die Gees. Die hele Almagtige God. Iets wat ons menslike breine sukkel om te verstaan, maar Hy het die konsep op die maklikste moontlike manier vir ons kom demonstreer. Siel, liggaam en gees. Drie-enig. Als in een. EEN God, genaamd YHWH (Ek is wat ek is). Die Seun, die Ligaaam, is die aardse beeld van God gewees met die “blueprint”, die essence, die DNA van die Vader. Die aardse beeld van die Hemelse Vader. As voorbeeld vir ons. Hy is dus die Weg. Hy het dit kom aandui. Self, persoonlik. 

Jesus het as 'n kind van die mens gekom en gewys hoe ons moet leef en glo, en selfs hoe ons van en oor ons Vader in die Hemel moet praat. Terwyl Hy 'n mens was, was Hy ook “Son of Man”. Nou is ons ook nog “Sons of Man”. Seuns van Adam. Nakomelinge van Adam.

Toe Hy gesterf het en deur die Gees opgewek is, was Hy en is Hy ook nou die Seun van God. Want ons moet in Sy voetstappe volg. Wanneer ons sterf, en opgewek word (die wat Sy Gees het), sal ons ook soos Jesus wees. Of deur die dood, of deur Sy terugkoms. Die wat Sy Gees ontvang het, wat Sy DNA as blueprint vanaf die Gees ontvang het, sal daardeur as 'n “nuwe mens” gemaak wees. Met 'n Ewige Liggaam. Hy is dus YHWH, wat die Vader, die Seun en die Gees is. 

Ek stem dus glad nie saam met mnr Pretorius se idees van hoe die Romeinse kerk vir ons gelieg het dat Jesus die Seun van God is nie. O, hulle het vir ons oor BAIE dinge gejok. Maar nie daaroor nie. Want ek glo die Bybel, en nie Roomse of Joodse “fabels” of mense of kerke nie.

En dis die Bybel wat dit eerstens verklaar het, nie die kerk nie:

1 Johannes 5
Wie anders is dit wat die wêreld oorwin as hy wat glo dat Jesus die Seun van God is.


Mnr Pretorius: “Jesus was deel van die Essene gemeenskap van Qumran en hulle was wat ons as spiritual mystics kan beskryf.”

Nee, die mense om Hom, was deel van die Essene Gemeenskap. Daar is geen definitiewe bewys dat Sy familie, of spesifiek Hy self, ook deel daarvan was nie. Baie mense baseer hulle gnostiese gelowe op hierdie tipe (valse) aannames. Dis hoekom Christene nie die buite Bybelse geskrifte van daardie tye as onfeilbaar beskou nie, maar slegs die Woord as onfeilbaar. Christene glo die Woord is die enigste onfeilbare, ware bron.


Mnr Pretorius: “Daar kon onmoontlik twee rowers weerskante van hom gekruisig gewees het, want sulke mense is op ander, minder dramatiese maniere doodgemaak.”

So in plaas van om die Bybel te glo, glo mnr Pretorius dit kon “onmoontlik nie” so gewees het nie, want..... Die rede is so vaag, dat geen akademikus dit ooit as 'n rede sou kon aanvaar nie. Hoekom hy dus dink ons moet dit as “bewys” aanvaar van hoe “onmoontlik” dit dus is dat die Bybel reg kon wees nie.... sjoe.

Ons is nie desperaat om die Bybel verkeerd te bewys nie! Ons is ook nie angstig om die Bybel as korrek te bewys nie, want God het gesê aan die Einde van Tyd, sal als geopenbaar word. Dan sal die Waarheid staan. Geloof is om te hoop op dit wat ons (nog) nie kan sien (of bewys) nie.

'n Trend wat duidelik na vore kom, is dat waar die buite Bybelse geskrifte die Bybel korrek bewys, verwerp mnr Pretorius dit as Romeinse inmenging. Waar die buite Bybelse tablette of geskrifte die Bybel as “verkeerd” bewys, glo mnr Pretorius die geskrifte amper lyk dit, onvoorwaardelik. Dan was daar geen “inmenging” nie.


Mnr Pretorius: “Dit was dus die Satan wat ‘n tydelike oorwinning oor God behaal het!”

En nog steeds verstaan mnr Pretorius geheel en al glad nie die Bybel of Jesus se Evangelie nie. Nee, Jesus het werklik deur Sy kruisiging, die oorwinning behaal, want hierdeur het Hy volgens Joodse wette die reg verkry om namens enige iemand wat glo in Hom (en Sy offer aanvaar vir hul sondes) hulle te red, verander deur die gees, en te lei op die aarde. Sien dit amper soos “borgtog staan”, in ons wette van vandag. Een persoon mag 'n ander help om sy skuld te betaal. Jesus het ons skuld betaal, vir die wat dit aanneem en glo. Hy het ook ander dinge “ontsluit” in die gees en die liggaam deur te sterf en daarna op te staan, maar dis onnodig om te diep nou daarop in te gaan.

Mnr Pretorius: “Farao Akhenaten, of Moses soos ons hom ken, het gesê dat die ware God op ‘n ster woon met die naam Aten en dat Hy alleen aanbid moet word.....Daar is net een planeet wat op enige wyse hiervoor kon kwalifiseer en dit was Nibiru. Dit beteken, met ander woorde, dat die God wat hulle moes aanbid op Nibiru gewoon het.”

Eerstens, Akhenaten was nie Moses nie! Daar is 'n groepie mense wat dit glo, maar meer wat die teendeel al bewys het.

Tweedens, die ou voorvaders van daardie tyd, het sterre aan al hul helde en stadsvaders en gode toegeken. Dit beteken nie die persoon bly werklik daar nie! Daar is wel 'n skakel, tussen die geboortes van mense en die geboortes van nuwe planete. So dit kan wel wees dat elke persoon van sekere bloedlyne, 'n “ster” het wat hulle s'n is vanaf geboorte. Ek glo dis die sterre wat gaan val. Mense wat sterre gehad het, maar deur die draak se stert verslaan word. Joseph het gedroom dis Jakob se bloedlyn wat almal “sterre” is, volgens die Bybel.

Die Antichris gaan 'n god aanbid wat ons “voorvaders nie geken het nie”, volgens Daniel. En die Antichris het ons deur die profete gehoor, is 'n Akhenaten afstammeling, wat geglo het dat die “god wat hulle moes aanbid op 'n ster met die naam Aten woon”. Klink vir my of die Afvalligheid al van daardie dae af aankom!


Mnr Pretorius: “Nasaret het (nog) nie bestaan in Jesus se tyd nie. Hulle het ‘n profesie in die Ou Testament tot hul voordeel probeer vervals hiermee.”

Daar was twee dorpies met die naam Nasaret. Een wat later en meer Suid begin is, en een wat vroëer en meer Noord geleë was.

Ek kan nie help om te wonder wat mnr Pretorius enigsins nog uit die Nuwe Testament glo nie?

• Hy glo nie die Evangelies nie, want hy sê dis “Paul se evangelies”.
• Hy glo nie dat Jesus gesterf het aan die kruis nie, of dat Hy gaan terug kom nie.
• Hy glo nie Paulus se briewe en boeke nie.
• Hy glo nie wat oor Petrus geskryf is nie.
• En hy glo die Roomse kerk het boonop 'n handjie gehad in die boek Openbaring.

Wat bly enigsins oor wat hom 'n Christen sou maak? Ek sou hom van die Joodse geloof kon beskuldig het, maar hy glo amper net so min van die Boeke van Genesis en Levitikus, en selfs nie veel meer van Jesaja nie.


Mnr Pretorius: “Petrus was volgens die Roomse kerk die eerste Pous van die kerk gewees, maar hoe kan dit wees, want daardie kerk is dan eers meer as 250 jaar later gestig!”

LOL. Dit was nie dieselfde Petrus nie!!! Die “Petrus” van die Roomse kerk, kom van die woord Pater af, wat Vader beteken het. ;-)


Mnr Pretorius: “Hulle sê egter in dieselfde asem ook hy is op sy versoek onderstebo in Rome gekruisig. Dit is weereens ‘n leuen, want hy was nie ‘n fisiese rebel nie en niemand weet regtig wat van hom geword het nie. As hy ‘n rebel was sou hy saam met Jesus gekruisig gewees het, en hy is nie. Sy rol word in elk geval heeltemal oorspeel in die Bybel, want hy was nie naastenby so belangrik as wat ons daar lees nie. Die ware dissipels was almal hoog aangeskrewe senior priesters in die Essene gemeenskap en Petrus was nie deel van hierdie uitgelese groep nie.”

Wow. Soveel gif teenoor die arme Petrus. Wat reeds beweer het hy is NIE so belangrik nie. Nou word hy aangevat oor hy nie so belangrik was nie. Ai. Wat het die arme Petrus verkeerd gedoen? ;-)

En om te sê iets soos sy onderstebo kruisiging is 'n leuen, want “niemand weet regtig wat van hom geword het nie”.... is weer soos die redenasie oor hoekom die Bybel jok oor die 2 boewe weerskante van Jesus. Dit staaf geensins die idee dat Petrus dus 'n leuenaar of iets was nie, of dat daar oor hom gejok is in die Bybel nie!

Die stukkie: “as hy 'n rebel was sou hy saam met Jesus gekruisig gewees het”. 

Wow. Weereens, wanneer buite Bybelse boeke ooreenstem met die Bybel, verwerp mnr Pretorius beide. Wanneer dit verskil van die Bybel, word die buite Bybelse boek geglo. Die arme Bybel word telkemale net verwerp as leuens en bedrog. Hoe hartseer!

Ek is nie eintlik seker of mnr Pretorius dink Petrus was nou eintlik rebels oor hy nie so rebels was nie? En of hy nie rebels was nie, want hy was nie (gou) genoeg rebels om saam met Jesus te sterf nie? :-D

Ek persoonlik dink ook dat mnr Pretorius heeltemal te veel waarde heg aan “hoog aangeskrewe en uitgelese” groepe. Tyd het bewys dat Elites en Koninklike bloedlyne toe nou nie so hoog aangeskryf moet word nie. ;-)

Wat opvallend is uit hierdie gal braak teenoor Petrus, is die eerbiedige manier waarmee daar dwarsdeur van die Annunaki gepraat word, maar met soveel griewing en nydigheid van Bybelse karakters, en veral die Hoofkarakter. Dit is dus baie, baie duidelik wie mnr Pretorius eerder aanhang, glo en volg.

Mnr Pretorius: “En ek het ’n nuwe hemel en ’n nuwe aarde gesien, ….... sien neerdaal van God uit die hemel, toeberei soos ’n bruid...hoor sê: Kyk, die tabernakel van God is by die mense....”

Dit is met ander woorde niks anders as ‘n baie groot ruimteskip nie, en ‘n mens het nogal baie verbeelding nodig om te wil aanvaar dat hierdie bloot aan die misterie van God toegeskryf kan word! So ‘n vaartuig, wat kan neerdaal soos ‘n helikopter, kan nét van ‘n ander planeet in ons sonnestelsel af kom en nêrens anders nie!

Ek dink dis hier waar ek werklik hardop uitgebars het van die lag, en besef het ek moenie hierdie man so ernstig opneem nie. ;-) Meeste van ons behoudende Afrikaners, wat almal Bybel-gelowige volgelinge van Jesus Christus is, sal reg deur al die strooi kyk.

Nuwe Jerusalem is nie 'n ruimteskip nie! Dis Jesus se Bruid.... mense. Die woord Hemel het verskeie betekenisse in die Bybel. Netsoos wat die woord “Aarde” verwys het na die “planeet” op party plekke, na die “vasteland” op ander, en selfs na die “baarmoeder” of “liggaam” in ander weer!

In hierdie geval gaan Nuwe Jerusalem die groep mense op Aarde wees wat die Gees gaan kry net soos die Apostels in die bo-kamer in Handelinge ontvang het. :-) Want God gaan by Sy mense kom bly, en Sy stad is 'n stad van Lewendige Klippe, waarvan Jesus die hoeksteen is. Die eerste steen.

Is dit nie interessant, dat mense soos mnr Pretorius wat die Bybel ontsettend kritiseer, tog nog steeds stukke daarvan wil gebruik om hul eie geloof te "regverdig". So hy glo Nuwe Jerusalem gaan uit die Hemel kom, wat in die Bybel staan. Maar hy glo nie dat Jesus die Seun van God is nie, wat nie net in die Bybel staan nie, maar die tema van die hele Nuwe Testament is, asook die geloof was van die skrywer van Openbaring, waarin die stukkie van Nuwe Jerusalem staan nie. O, die ironie!

My voorlaaste artikel is kort inligting oor die 2 Nuwe Wêreld Ordes.

Die “ou” NWO en die “nuwe” NWO

Ek gaan nie lank hieroor skryf nie, want dit is 'n onderwerp op sy eie wat ek nog sal aanspreek.

2 Korintiers 12:

14 En geen wonder nie! Satan self doen hom voor as 'n engel van die lig. 15 Daarom is dit ook nie snaaks dat sy dienaars hulle voordoen as mense wat die wil van God doen nie. Aan die einde sal hulle kry wat hulle vir hulle dade verdien.

Die wêreld word tans geinisieer in die “okkult”. Dis 'n lang storie, en die beste om dit te beskryf is ProbablyAlexandra.com of in haar video's op die Youtube kanaal ProbablyAlexandra.

Vir jare nou al, word die wêreld gewys hoe wreed en duiwels en sleg is die “Weste”. Die vark in die verhaal. En ja, hulle is, daar's geen twyfel nie. En hulle dade en slymerigheid en onderduimsheid en leuens en sonde is nou daar vir almal om te sien.

Die NWO is NIE die huidige stelsel nie! Die huidige stelsel is die “Nuwe wêreld” orde. Amerika was die Nuwe Wêreld genoem. So die Amerikaanse orde, is die huidige orde, dis die Nuwe-Wêreld Orde. Die Amerikaanse orde.

So wat is/was, is die Nuwe-Wêreld Orde van die VSA.

Wat kom, is die Nuwe, Wêreld-orde. Die wêreld se orde. Die een-wêreld orde (One World Government). Die Draak se orde. Die Ooste se orde. Beheer. 

Amerika moet val, en almal gaan juig, want kyk net hoe evil en duiwels is sy. Hoe sondig is die Weste. God wys aan almal die nakende, sondige vrou van Openbaring. Mystery Babylon... vandag genoem: Die Verenigde State van Amerika.

Wat kom in sy plek?

Die Nuwe wêreld-orde. Dis NIE 'N VERBETERING NIE!!! Dis NETSO sleg. Erger. Twee vlerke van dieselfde voël!! 

Ek het 'n visioen gehad, en dit was ontsettend. Enige iemand wat dink Amerika was "sleg", gaan terug verlang na die "goeie ou dae van die Weste". Dit wat Chinese nou beleef, is soos Kersfees teenoor wat kom vir die mense in die Weste. Die beheer gaan ontsettend wees. Genadeloos. 

Maar God vra dat ons nie terugverlang na Sodom en Gomorrah se dae nie! Moenie terugkyk nie. Moenie bang raak nie. Kyk vorentoe. Oë op Hom, want dit wat daarna wag, sodra Jesus Sy Koninkryk hier oprig, is soveel beter as die Orde van die Weste OF die Ooste! Dis God se Orde.

Die Hindoes storie waarvan mnr Pretorius praat  – dit gaan oor die Nuwe wêreld-orde. Die nuwe NWO. Die Ooste se Orde. 

Eers die afbreek van die ou orde, die Amerikaanse orde, die Nuwe-wêreld orde. Dan kom die Nuwe wêreld-orde met sy digitale stelsels, digitale ID..... dis als net die begin van die Nuwe, wêreld-orde. Waar die Duiwel, Satan, homself as 'n Engel van Lig gaan voordoen.

So as iemand juig en skree van vreugde oor die "NWO" afgebreek word, weet dan dat dit nie albei NWO's afbreek nie. Net die ou een wat op die Amerikaanse manier gedoen was. Gabasseer op Romeinse Reg en die Bybelse waardes en integriteit (al het hulle sover in sonde verval). Wat kom word OOK die NWO genoem, sodat mense nie besef waarvoor hulle hulself inlaat nie. En dit gaan op die Oosterse reg, gelowe en metodes gebasseer word. Kyk net hoe het sosiaisme dwarsdeur die Weste klaar ingesluip. Hulle is "ryp" vir die Ooste. Die nuwe NWO.

Die draak van ouds, Satan, gaan homself voordoen, of "oordoen" as 'n "Engel van Lig". Hy gaan optree asof hy “righteous” is, asof hy reg en geregtigheid en vrede bring. Hulle gaan verklaar hoe sleg die Weste was, en hoe hulle die wêreld kom “red” van hierdie evil en wicked Weste. Hoe hulle nou vryheid en welvaart aan die hele wêreld gaan bring, onder die beheer van die Ooste, nie meer die Weste nie.

Dis die dier se ryk, Satan se ryk. Die nuwe NWO wat die ou NWO gaan vervang, en dit gaan NET SO sleg wees. Erger. Die 4de dier volgens die Bybel gaan verskriklik wees.

So tans, met die Beer wat al op die toneel is, moet mense begin besef. Dis die tweede DIER. Dis nie 'n redder nie. Dis nie eers 'n vrou nie. Dis 'n dier. Putin is NIE ons redder nie. 

Die Hindoe's se “New Age” is NIE die korrekte geloof nie. Agter dit als vind ons dieselfde draak van ouds. Glo die Bybel. Dit het ons gewaarsku om niks te vertrou nie, want hulle gaan ons van alle kante af mislei!

Ek beveel sterk aan dat die wat meer wil verstaan, Probably Alexandra se blog lees, of beter nog, luister na haar video's (die skakels is op haar website). Sy is nie korrek in als nie, glad nie! Daar's sekere doktrines wat sy aanhang wat ek nie doen of mee saamstem noodwendig nie. Maar sy's 'n Christen en sy het haar huiswerk gedoen. Sy weet waarvan sy praat. Luister na die breë trekke wat sy probeer beskryf. Hoe hulle die wêreld gereed maak om eers die ou, wrede, evil orde raak te sien vir wat hy is (en hy IS werklik baie evil). Dit noem hulle die "Great Awakening". 

Dan gaan hulle die mense gebruik om dit omver te gooi. Mense gaan juig en dink hier kom die Ooste tot die wereld se redding, en so aanvaar hulle die nuwe orde, sonder om te besef dis net so erg en erger. Die wereld gaan dink die nuwe een is goed en moreel en regverdig, maar dis dieselfde duiwel wat mense mislei.

Laastens bespreek ek net gou my gedagtes oor mnr Pretorius se roeping.

Mnr Pretoius se Roeping

Hierdie gaan ek ook slegs kortliks aanspreek. Mnr Pretorius het voorheen herhaaldelik beweer dat God hom geroep het, en hom as 'n wag op die muur aangestel het. Asook dat die Gees van die Almagtige God hom die insig en leiding gegee het om sy boek oor Siener van Rensburg te skryf.

Het die Lewend God, Skepper van die Hemel en die Aarde, hom geroep en as wag aangestel? Ek weet nie, niemand behalwe God kan dit antwoord nie.

Hier is mnr Pretorius se eie woorde nou in Augustus 2022 hieroor:

“Nibiru se koms in my lewe in 2004 het egter ‘n totale verandering gebring...”
“Ek kan egter in alle eerlikheid nie sê van waar of wie my roeping oor Siener en later die openbaring oor Nibiru gekom het nie. Ek vermoed dat dit Nibiru was...”

Indien hy as belydende Christen grootgeword het, soos dit vir my klink hy het, dan was hy wel deel van die Liggaam van Jesus. God kon hom wel geroep en gebruik het in die 90'er jare. Sy eerste boek sover ek weet, het in 2004 verskyn. Sy roeping om oor Siener se profesieë 'n boek te skryf, en die nuwe vlak wat God wou hê ons moes raaksien, kon dus wel van God af gekom het.

Hyself glo dit egter nie (meer) nie. En dit laat mens noodwendig wonder.

Hy stel dit duidelik dat sy roeping van OF Nibiru OF iewers anders gekom het. Hy besef dus eintlik self daar is 2 opsies, en hy ken dit persoonlik toe aan “Nibiru”. Hy sê dus nie dat sy roeping van "God Almagtig op Nibiru" af kom nie, maar erken dit kom OF van iewers anders, OF Nibiru. En die "iewers anders" het hy voorheen geglo, was van God Almagtig af. 

Sonder dat hy besef, het hy dus daardeur erken in sy diepste wese weet hy dat hy nou 'n ander god aanbid, as wat hy eers aanbid het. En nou ken hy al sy insig en roepinge toe aan hierdie "nuwe god", genaamd Nibiru. Oftewel, seker die “aliens” op Nibiru, seker nie die planeet self nie. 

Soos ek genoem het, kry baie New Agers ook sulke roepings en opdragte en woorde en inligting vanaf die “astral plane” deur seances, “channeling” en ander okkult praktyke en beweer dan dat die “aliens” met hulle gepraat het.

Ons weet dus nie of ons mnr Pretorius se boek nog enigsins kan vertrou nie. As God dit vir hom gegee het, dan kan ons. Maar ons gaan eers weet of dit wel van God af kom, wanneer die dinge afskop.

Indien (soos hy glo) dit van “Nibiru” afkomstig is, wil ek absoluut niks, maar niks daarmee te doen hê nie. En hy is self nie eers seker of dit van Nibiru of iewers anders vandaan kom nie!!

Dis vir my opvallend vreemd hoe mnr Pretorius herhaaldelik aan ons die versekering gegee het dat hy as wag op die muur aangestel is oor my mense. Hy glo dus daardie stukkie van die Bybel. So ons moet hom glo dat hy as wag aangestel is, en hy bewys dit deur 'n versie uit die einste Bybel wat hyself grotendeels nie meer vertrou of glo nie en aan ons probeer bewys het hoe "vals" dit is. Dis voorwaar vreemd en teëstrydig.

Boonop, as hy dit glo dat hy as wag aangestel is, moet hy tog besef, wanneer God 'n openbaring gee aan 'n “wag op die muur” is dit oor die GEVAAR daaraan betrokke. 

Sover het mnr Pretorius nog net aan ons verkoop hoe wonderlik Nibiru en die Annunaki is en eintlik ons Redder vir ons gaan bring. Dat God self saam met hulle op hul planeet verby kom, en dat ons ons goud met liefde in ons harte aan hulle moet oorhandig. Dis ons doel op aarde, beweer hy! 

Waar is die gevaar wat die versies in Ezekiel 33 noem? Wanneer 'n wag die gevaar sien aankom, moet hy die mense waarsku (tog TEEN die gevaar!) anders word hulle bloed van sy hande geëis. Ek sien geen waarskuwings vanaf mnr Pretorius, behalwe oor hoe vol leuens en bedrog en valshede die Bybel is nie! (Behalwe natuurlik die versies wat sy roeping bevestig.)  So hy kry 'n aansteling as wag, dan 'n waarskuwing om deur te gee. En hy gaan en waarsku die mense teen God, teen die Bybel, teen Sy Woord en teen Sy Seun. Hoe verskriklik! 

God het aan baie mense wat hy as wagte aangestel het, dieselfde openbaring dat daar 'n "Nibiru" gaan kom, gegee. Maar hulle het nie Stitchen se boeke gegryp en Joodse fabels begin glo nie. Hulle het gebid vir meer insig en inligting, en God het dit duidelik gemaak dat hierdie Nibiru-Alien storie is die Groot Afvalligheid wat kom, waarmee die Duiwel mense gaan mislei en laat wegval van God se Waarheid, die Bybel, af. So ons word al 10 jaar en langer gewaarsku deur die werklike wagte op die muur. Nie teen God en Sy Woord en Seun nie! Maar dat ons moet pasop en nie val vir hierdie leuens nie, dat dit gevaar vir ons spel.

Twee dinge ter afsluiting. Ek persoonlik glo dat mnr Pretorius wel sy oorspronklike roeping en insig vir sy eerste boek van God af gekry het. Dat sy werk tot 2004 dalk betroubaar of korrek KAN wees. Selfs moontlik is. Ek glo hy is soos 'n Saul wat aangestel was deur God, selfs "anointed" was, en toe val hy weg. En God stel 'n ander aan, in die plek van Saul. Ek wil dus nie mense oortuig om die hele eerste boek net weg te gooi nie, want ek glo God het insig daardeur aan ons gegee. Maar ek glo ook Hy het geweet sy wag op die muur gaan teen Hom draai. En daarom het Hy sekere inligting nog weerhou. Maak dus u eie gevolgtrekking, bid oor die saak. Persoonlik verwerp ek nie als voor 2004 van mnr Pretorius tans nie. 

Maar, wel als na 2004, gebaseer op hierdie laaste punt:

Ons lees in 1 Johannes 4:

Die vals profete
1 Geliefdes, moenie enigeen glo wat sê dat hy die Gees van God het nie, want daar is nou reeds baie vals profete in die wêreld, maar ondersoek elkeen, ondersoek of sy gees van God afkomstig is.
2 Hiéraan ken julle die Gees van God: elkeen wat bely dat Jesus werklik die Christus is wat mens geword het, het die Gees wat van God afkomstig is. 

3 En elkeen wat dit nie van Jesus bely nie, het nie die Gees wat van God afkomstig is nie. Hy het die gees van die antichris, die gees van wie julle gehoor het dat hy kom en wat nou reeds in die wêreld is.

Die Bybel sê dus vir ons dat die wat nie glo dat Jesus die Verlosser is wat mens geword het nie, nie die Gees het wat van God afkomstig is nie. Dis een manier hoe ons aangewys word om te weet of die persoon wat na ons toe kom, wel van God gehoor het. Tans kom mnr Pretorius dus nie na ons toe met die Gees van God nie. Inteendeel, hy het die gees van die antichris volgens hierdie stukkie. Want hy sê Jesus is nie die Verlosser (Christus) nie, hy is nie die Seun van God, of die Woord wat mens geword het nie, en hy bely dit nie van Jesus nie. Ons kan dus geensins enige iets meer van mnr Pretorius glo as Christene nie, of hom volg nie. Enige iemand met die gees van die Antichris, gaan ons slegs mislei!

Mag die Lewendige God, Skepper van die Heelal, mnr Pretorius se oë oopmaak vir Sy Waarheid. En mag God ons mense beskerm teen die leuens en misleiding en Groot Afvalligheid wat kom.

Goed, dis genoeg gebabbel. My pad skei nou finaal hier van mnr Pretorius s'n.

Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015

Can you believe it. 2014... gone. Finish and dusted. What a year it was! When 2011 were done with, we just prayed to never, ever have another 2010 and 2011. Unfortunately, 2013 and 2014 very closely matched the difficulties for us. So here's to hoping that 2015 will thus match the quiet love, happiness and wonder that was 2012. The year that brought our last baby and a whole lot of healing to us.

Long ago, I wrote a post in the old year about every child (here). I'd like to recreate that here now. They have all grown so much, turned into such beautiful young people. I'm so very, very proud of all of them.

Mr N
He has matured so much, even though he hasn't changed much. He's still scrawny, still all smiles, few hugs and a very sensitive side he likes to hide. He's very secure in who he is, where he's going and what he'll do with his life. Career-wise, but also all other areas. It's as if he was born being 30, and he's just waiting the time out to be 30. If that makes sense.

He's such a caring young man. He will make sure all and everyone around him is happy, taken care of and not slighted or unhappy in some way. He will look out for his younger siblings, as long as I'm not looking. ;-) He adores his babysister, and loves to chase her around the house, driving her to hysterical giggles.

Academically, he's worked really hard this year. He has learned some lessons. That you have to make sure you keep all balls in the air, because if you drop one... It was a valuable lesson. I'm so proud of the way he has handled such a difficult year. The way he coped, and took it one day at a time and just made sure he kept his head down and did what needed to be done. He was never involved in any of the upsets at school. Never part of the rowdy 13-year old boys who think they're too big for their shoes because they're the eldest in school. He was never involved in any of the scandalous behaviours, never wanted to be part of those groups. He stood by his morals, his integrity and his honesty. He still respected his teachers! And he showed us that he can be trusted. That was the biggest gift he could have given us. We love this firstborn of ours to pieces!

Boeboe
Oh man, our little fighter. Who knew that when she was lying in that tiny crib, struggling for every breath to just stay alive, that that fighting spirit would take her so far! That she would need it again, and again, and again. Of course it saddens me so much, but when I see her fight through every obstacle life throws at her, I can't help but be so amazed, so proud of this delicate little thing that houses such a big spirit. She has no idea how proud she makes us. How much we respect her abilities to overcome life and stay afloat. If only I had half her spirit!!

And then she stays humble, loving and gentle. How does she do it? There's no one kinder, no more tender person in this life. She will cut her own arm off, if someone smaller and weaker than she needs it. The way she loves her siblings, and especially dotes on her babysister. It's heartwarming to see.

But. She's not a kitten to touch without gloves!! She scratches and bites and will take your hand off if you're not careful! She applies that fighting spirit to everything around her! When she feels threatened, slighted or misunderstood, EVERYONE arounds her knows it IMMEDIATELY. She will NOT keep quiet. Never! Even when asked to tone down, she.will.not.

This year, academically, she has surprised us beyond words. She has excelled!! We're so so so proud of her hard work, her dedication, her tenacious spirit that just keeps going. Until the work is done/learned/completed/perfected. She will NOT give up.

I have to add one last thing. This little girl of mine is turning into an exceptionally beautiful young woman. She has this slender, gracious long limbs and body that she moves in such fluid motion that it captivates anyone looking at her. Her long, thing fingers, her hooded dark eyes, her long shiny black, black hair, her looooong lashes, the perfect olive coloured skin....one day, she's going to break alot of hearts, and I'm just praying that she'll stand strong and make the right choices in life regarding men.

Monkeyman
Ag man, my little monkey. He's such a joy to have around. Such a sweet, sweet personality. So soft and gentle and kind. So tender and quiet and contend. Four year laters, he's still just my quiet, deep river that just flows calmly and strongly. Never any upsets. Never demanding. Never making the world known that here he is. He just is. Quiet, on his own, shy smile ready for any loved one.

He's our clever little one. The one who, likes his older brother, finds academics easy. He loves learning! Loves, loves, loves it. He's looking forward to learning to read and write some more this year so much. He adores learning new facts of the world around him, and will remember it so well. Explaining days later to me what his teacher said! He always asks how something works. He loves maths! He finds it easy, and get so excited when he comes across a difficult calculation and can work it out all by himself.

He adores his siblings, especially the older two. They're his world! He looks up to them, and hate not being able to do all that they can. He absolutely loves it when they spend time with him. Outside ball games with Mr N, or arty, crafty or pretend play inside with Boeboe.

He's a scaredy little cat though, this one. He wakes up when there's thunder and lighting at night, and the lighting storms here in the highvelds are particularly spectacular in sound and light. It scares adults as much as the children! We just hide it a bit better. :-)

What I find interesting, is to see how much he has matured this past year. Alot of his peers are still in the "I am better/faster/quicker/etc. than you" phase, while he has moved out of it. He will come and tell me after an event or a visit or a school day, how he wasn't the fastest, best nor the strongest, but that it's okay, he didn't mind and still enjoyed the game. Such maturity from such a young little boy. It makes my heart swell in wonder and pride. Just a year ago he still thought he was SUPERfast and will always win all running contests. Now, he doesn't mind loosing, and will participate with a happy smile, because it's still FUN! How can you not love such a spirit? :-)

Peanut
My baby. My last beautiful baby. The little girl I so desperately wanted. Was she worth the fight? Yes! Very, very, very much so. The nine months of nausea. The worries. The little sleep I still get. Worth every minute. Because she's the most adorable part of our family. She's an absolute wonder to have with us. Very, very much loved, and very much wanted!

She's her own little thing. So different from the rest. The way she uses her short little body, her abandonment when she has fun. The way she would sing for everyone and anyone without shyness. The way she would laugh with her siblings. Such happiness.

She's still a shy, introvert, even though she has her moments. She has this way of trying to hide her face when she hears someone talks about her. It's the cutest thing ever! She loves to get photographed! And she loves watching movies of her and her siblings on my iPad.

She doesn't sleep much. Even though she's only 2.5, she doesn't take a nap every day. She sleeps INTERUPTED for 11 hours a night, and about 3-4x a week she'll take a 2-hour nap. When SHE chooses to. It could be 2pm, or even at 6pm! You canNOT make her sleep when she's not ready, but you can keep her awake when you need to! She's not very active though. She's a little dreamer, that will easily sit and play with a bunch of toys all quiet and sweet for a long while. Her all time favourite though is the big blue bike outside! She'll ride and ride and ride that thing for hours!

She hates bathing! Hates hates hates it. She's terrified of it! She loves swimming, so it's not the water. Something about bathing freakes her out. And washing her hair is almost a no-go. But give her a bowl of water to play with, and she's in 7th heaven!

She adores the piano. And she adores music. She will quickly learn the tune of new songs, even though her pronounciation of the words might not be all there. She can't recognise colours, but gives her a shape-sorter and she'll do it perfectly!


So that's my four babies. It has been a long road for them, the past year. It wasn't easy on them. Some days were really, really tough. Some days were really sad. But all four of them would just stand up, dust themselves off and soldier on. Handing out hugs to those around them that has fallen as well. They surely are 4 lovely children to have and to love. I'm such a proud mother, and so grateful to be their mommy. Nothing could've made me happier or prouder, than seeing them develop and grow this past year into the children they are today. I hope to see them even more happy and more secure during a wonderful 2015 that will bring them just love, happiness, laughter and grace.

Just ridiculous!

Mr N's been bitten by a spider. Can you believe this? It's been almost a year since Boeboe was bitten for the first time. This time, this dr are sure it's a yellow sac spider. And it looks remarkably similar to Boeboe's of last year, so that confirms my suspicions that it was a yellow sac that bit Boeboe. A mom's instinct, hey?! Shame, Mr N was bitten during the night. He said he woke up around 4am on Saturday morning, from a severe itch on his knee. He scratched it raw and fell asleep again. Then kinda forgot about it, I think. On Sunday evening, more than 36 hours later, he showed it to us (thank goodness) to ask what it was? It looked like a mosquito bite that was scratched raw. It looked very similar to another (real) mosquito bite about 2cm's from it. He's a bit allergic, so all of them gets swollen. Only thing that bothered me a bit, was that it looked more like a fluid-filled blister than a swollen bite. So I asked my husband (who wakes the kids up and take them to school while I sleep in with the baby) to wake me up if he feels the bite looks any worse the next morning before school. Thank goodness he did, because it definitely looked worse. The blister burst open during the night and was oozing. There was a red ring around it, and looked very, very similar to Boeboe's bite. Expect much smaller and less "angry-looking". And he had no pain from it, unlike she did.

Fortunately, I already had an appointment for myself at our very trusted GP, so I took him with me, prepared to exchange my appointment for him. But the GP was kind enough to see both of us. So Mr N is on a/b's. As far as I can remember, the last time he had a/b's, was when he had scarlet fever, age 10 or 11.

The bitemark isn't as spectacular as Boeboe's. Her bite though, was much larger by the time we took her to the dr. I believe it was 2-3 days after being bitten already. So the damage/infection was much bigger already. Also, I killed a big, fat, huge yellow sac spider a few days after she must've been bitten. In my bath. It was the biggest yellow sac I've seen. Yesterday, a day after Mr N was bitten (and earlier the day, before he showed us the bite), I stooped down to throw a table clothe back on the little tablestand that Peanut has pulled off and left on the floor. When I threw it over the table, I noticed a spider running. On instinct, I killed it. Peanut was standing a metre away from me. Once it was dead, I had a look at what it was, and it was clearly a sac spider, with the black jaws. (*shudder*) But, it was a small one. Very young, not sure if it was even fully grown yet. Anyway, if that's the one that bit Mr N, it makes sense that his mark ends up much less awful than Boeboe's. If a smaller spider has less poison than a huge one.

So here's a few pics I took.

Day 3, just before I took him to the dr.

Day 4, after one day of oral and topical antibiotics.

Day 5, third day of taking antibiotics.

Day 6, today, looks so much better. It's almost healed! Amazing, compared to how long Boeboe's took. So that's been the start to our week.

Boeboe has started with the full dose of medication early this week. I have this sliver of hope that there's IS improvement in her behaviour. I just haven't spent enough time watching her, evaluating her, making mental notes. My focus wasn't on her AT ALL. I feel awful to say this, because I know how important it is. I know. And still, I dropped the ball. I just couldn't cope with this past few weeks. So I'm back on the ball, and from tomorrow I will take more notice, again. Now that Monkeyman's tiredness is back to normal (nothing better), since we've stopped the beta blocker. She told me last night:

"Mommy, while I was doing homework today, there came such a peaceful feeling over me. I felt like I AM going to pass this year."

Wow. How amazing is that? So maybe the full dossage is doing it's work!! I asked her some questions, and it seems like she feels calmer and like how the meds are making her feel, and she feels like it's working. So let's hold thumbs!! It does sadden me a bit though, to realise that she's already anxious about passing this year or not. It's only just started!

I had another wow moment. I'm a Christian. I believe in the Power of God. I also believe in the kindness and love that God has for us. Quite a while ago, weeks or months, I can't remember, I had a moment where I panicked a bit. Boeboe asked me something about "the day she learns to drive". And for a moment, I suddenly wondered if she's ever going to be able to drive. Driving is such a complex, multi-tasking effort, that needs instinct, logic and forethought. Things she struggles with so much. It scared me. Both the fact that she might be in an accident one day, but also if she's going to be able to drive at all. In our country, having a license and owning a car is almost mandatory. Our public transport is unreliable, very unsafe and not available everywhere. It makes life immensely difficult for a person who can't drive. After stressing about this for a while, I pushed it to the side and forgot about it. I never spoke to my friend about it.

A few days ago, I had lunch with her, and she told me that she had a dream the previous night about Boeboe. And she has no idea why, but what she took away from the dream, was that she needed to tell me "Boeboe will drive one day". She doesn't know why she had to tell me this, and it made no sense to her. She just felt the need.

Wow.

I thought that really amazing. Goosebumps amazing. And it comforted me! It's a relief, to believe that Boeboe will drive one day.

I'm currently connected to a holter EKG. The dr believes that I have arrhythmia (spelling??). Not sure from what. But hopefully the EKG will catch any episodes if I indeed does have it. I'll probably only get the results next week. I'm not too worried about it. Though, when I heard I need to do the 24hr EKG, I did panick for a moment. My mind jumped to worse case scenarios. What if I have a heart problem? What if they put me on heart medication and I can't stand the side effects like Monkeyman? What if I have to stop breastfeeding Peanut? What if I'm resistant to all meds like my mom was? What if I die like my mom? What happens to my 4 beautiful, dependant children?? Eish, nothing like a mini-panick attack to think the absolute worse, hey?! I calmed down after a day or so, and realise that whatever I have, I've had it for eons. Well, a looooong time. Some of the symptoms definitely comes from my childhood already. So it's not like I'm just going to peg over and die anytime soon, even if it might be my heart causing it. I think I've just had too many things happening recently. I can't keep a normal, balanced outlook currently. My timing to organise this, really sucks. But I got so out of breath from really minimal (and I do mean MINIMAL) effort like climbing a handful of steps, that I decided I need to get this sorted before it gets even worse. Even though it feels awfully wrong to put my son through multiple heartsonars and EKG's and hear medication and worry so much about him having heart issues, and just as things starts to look up with his heart, I go and complain about mine. And goes for tests and things. :-( Almost as if I'm looking for something to be wrong with someone's heart in my family. Just doesn't feel right. Sigh.

Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease

No, not the bovine disease! A related, but human disease caused by the coxsackie (who on earth named a virus that - hahahahaha) virus. Yes, we've become familiar with this disease. After 12 years of having kids, this was our first. Apparently, it mostly hits children 5 and under, and 2nd most, children between 5 and 10. Older children, teens and adults very rarely gets it, and if they do, they get it less severe than babies and small children. Interesting, since most childhood illnesses is worse in adults than in the children!

Peanut got it first. We went to about 4 shops in the days before our long weekend away (we went camping). I'm pretty sure she must've picked it up in that time. Fortunately, she didn't have a severe case. She was a bit miserable, couldn't drink for 3 nights (did drink in the day, fortunately), due to an ulcer on the tip of her tongue, threw up once and had the most awful smelling nappies (still have those, yuck!). And the rash, of course. No fever, strangely.

Boeboe got it about 2 days after Peanut, first complaining about her cheek that hurt (from ulcers). Then the rash on her hands and feet. Just a few spots. No fever. Apart from her mouth being really painful at times, a sore throat at night for 3 nights, and difficulty eating and drinking due to the ulcers, she was absolutely fine.

Then Mr N got it. Three ulcers in the mouth, and a rash all over his arms, hands, feet and legs. The rash didn't turn into blisters like some of Boeboe's did. And it dissapeared in less than 48 hours. No other symptoms. Not even a fever either. And his mouth ulcers wasn't as sensitive as Boeboe's was.

It seems as if Monkeyman has been skipped. No symptoms or signs so far. We'll see how it goes the next week. Both me and their dad had sore throats, and I have a few small mouth ulcers (nothing too painful), and a small patch of rash on my one foot. So I guess everyone got it, except Monkeyman! Clearly, whatever ails him, causing the tiredness, doesn't affect his immune system. Thank God for that.

Here's some piccies of how the rash looked on the kids. As you can see, quite different between individuals. I only realised it was HFMD when Boeboe presented with the ulcers in her mouth together with the blisters on her hands. Peanut refused me having look in her mouth, when I thought her lack of drinking at night and her excessive drooling was due to teething. Only once I knew Boeboe had ulcers, did I notice that Peanut had one on her tongue. Poor poppit.

Peanut's arm and shoulder. A short while after this was
taken, her hand was also full of spots. A few which blistered
later on.

A close up of some of the spots. Using a bit of imagination,
you'll notice that some of them are raised, and most has a
pinprick white head in the middle.

Spots on Mr N's arm

Other arm and hand

Knee

Foot (he worked in the garden during the morning, digging
holes for the new irrigation pipes his dad is putting in, so
excuse the dirtiness! The moment we noticed the spots, we
stopped his working in the garden, and he was so hyped up
about having an excuse to rather play computer games, LOL).

The blisters that formed on Boeboe's hand. She also got them
on her knee and foot, and Peanut got it on her hand. Again,
excuse the muddy hands!

And the very muddy toes! There's a few spots on the one foot
(tiny red pinpricks). But the reason I post this photo, is because
of the abrasions on her other foot. The one on the big toe is
fairly deep. This is typical of what happens to her on a
weekly basis, due to the damage the tethered cord did to the
nerves leading to her feet. It makes her so sad, that she's always
hurting, because of scrapes on the top of her feet. This is
because she drags her foot when the signals of the brain doesn't
reach the foot that it should lift the toes upwards, when stepping
through. It hurts me, seeing things like that on her feet.

Day 30: Lessons learned

I'm sorry, I didn't have time (or made the time) to do this last blog challenge on day 30. So yes, it's the 31st already. Tomorrow, in our country, is the first day of Spring. The children are exceptionally looking forward to it. Clearly, they're tired of winter and being cold and wearing 4 layers over each other. Always putting on socks and shoes, and Boeboe can't wait to wear frilly dresses and skirts again. I'm also looking forward seeing little Peanut in dresses again, especially now that she's walking. Aaawwww. This is why I wanted another little girl. Or at least, one of the reasons. :-)

So about the challenge. I guess the "lessons learned" they talk about, is during the past month, after doing the whole challenge? Well, I learned that it's not impossible to post on the blog (almost) every day! I used to (and will probably continue) to only post once a week or so. I also learned that it's not entirely as bad as I thought, to be talking about myself on here. I can easily relate my feelings, or talk for hours about my children. But listing my "good" points or putting up photo's of myself, or admitting that I have a mole on my cheek for example, those things was very difficult for me. But, I learned that it's do-able, and can serve a purpose. It's good to share. I used to think it's good for the one that shares, to share. It gives them an opportunity to work through some feelings and situations. But, I've now learned (due to other things happening as well), that sharing isn't only about the one that shares. It's also about the one with whom it was shared. The recipient is given the chance to get to know the sharer. The recipient is also given the opportunity to learn, grow, commisserate or understand. The recipient may feel valued, appreciated and important to someone. If we don't share, we take that opportunity away from the recipient.

So I've learned that I should not be so selective with what I want to share (like only discussing the kids, etc.). I have also noticed by reading a number of blogs this month, that I tend to be all doom and gloom. Which is so not me in real life. I think by sharing my worries and negative feelings, I'm able to let them go. Which gives me the opportunity to be the optimistic, happy person that I really am. While other people (with whom I shared), is left with the doom and negativity. Either taking it on, making them feel negative, or by seeing me as an eternally unhappy and negative person. I really am a very happy and light person. I don't have a great sense of humor, I won't be as bold as to claim that, LOL. My husband gets that honor. But I do have an innate positivity in me. Which is why I was able to carry on throughout the whole Boeboe-saga. I never took as much strain as my husband. Probably because I could come onto this blog, and dump all those feelings, so that it doesn't weigh me down. I always knew we'd get there, in the end. Where "there" was, and when we'd get there, were unknowns and scary, but I just knew it would be okay in the end. My faith is very strong in these instances.

So ya, I'll take the lessons I've learned this past month (and years) to heart, and see what changes I can make with the new knowledge I have about myself. I'm proud of having completed this challenge. Because it wasn't easy or natural to me. And at points, it was very difficult to take the 10 minutes to do this. Apart from the challenge, this must've been the busiest month I had ALL YEAR! So as you can imagine, it was challenging. But it was good, and I enjoyed it ALOT. I'm certainly going to join in on other challenges again in the future, or create my own. :-) Thanx for sharing this month with me!

Day 29: What am I looking forward to?

Short term, long term??

For short term, I'd say the weekend. I just want to relax and do NOTHING. The past week we had family staying with us, and I've cooked, cleaned, washed dishes, made coffee, etc. etc. etc. Till I'm ready to drop. And ontop of that it was/is exams, and I'm spending lots of time with Boeboe to get her ready. But that's a whole other post for another time. One day soon, when I have time again.

In the longer term, I'm looking forward putting this whole Monkeyman thing behind us. It's really weighing me down.

I'm also looking forward to all the little milestones we're going to have with Peanut (D.V.). I'm really enjoying seeing how clever our little baby is getting. She's saying so many words, new ones added all the time. When my eldest, Mr N was 14 months, he could only (barely) say 3 almost intelligible words. Peanut says so many, I'm literally unable to count it all. It could be 20, or 50, or even a 100 for all I know, LOL. She picks up new words and sounds very easily. She has also started to walk, so there's loads of new adventures awaiting her (and us), to look forward to.

I'm also looking forward to the summer starting soon. And to the school holidays. And to life just getting easier towards the end of the year. With less afterschool activities, less tests and projects and homework.

And, of course, I'm looking forward to Christmas!! Yes, I know it's barely even September, but like I said, I love Christmas. :-)

In the very very long term, I'm looking forward to my kids all growing up healthy and happy and safely, for them to study something, find a great job, a husband or wife, and to have kids and a wonderful life of their own.

Day 27: Best childhood memory

Oh gosh, this can bring one to tears. I have many, many childhood memories that's competing to be in the first place as "the best". Most of them involve my mom.

I think the one that I misses the most, will be classed as my best. It's not a single memory, but a huge number of similar ones. My mom always went to lie down after lunch during her holidays. Rarely, she'd take a nap. But usually, she would just turn up her heavy classical music, and enjoy it. Sometimes reading.

During the long summer holidays we always went to Waenhuiskrans for 5-6 weeks. It was THE best. Her bed there got afternoon sun, and as you probably know by now, I absolutely adore the sun. So by 3 or 4pm, she would be lying on her bed, looking out of the window, daydreaming. I'd go to her, lie down next to her but on the part of the bed that got sunshine, and we'd just chat and laugh and share. I was able to talk to her about absolutely everything under the sun. Nothing was too embarresing, too personal or too stupid to talk to her about. She rarely told me what to do. But she always had advice, always supported me, and always made sure I knew how proud she was of me.

So those days in the sun, chatting with my mother, is my best childhood memory. As I said, there's loads more, of course, but I won't bore you with them. :-)

Day 26: Favourite Foods

Well, there's a few, but I'm not sure if meals counts as foods? I'm going to assume it's okay. So, my top 10 favourite foods:

1. Fruit, especially watermelon, melon, sharon, grapes, berries, promegranates, citrus, mangoes, prickly pears, etc. I absolutely LOVE fruit.

2. Raw veggies. I don't like veggies much, not cooked. But raw - love it! Not all of it. But carrots, snap peas, avo's, cucumber, lettuce, etc.

3. Chicken curry. Warm, comfort food.

4. Lamb stew. Same, it's warm and comforting.

5. Beef & veggie soup. Cold winter night special.

6. Grilled T-bone beef steak.

7. Bacon. In any way, shape or form.

8. Crisps. Does this count as food? It's made from potatoes or corn, not true? Haha.

9. Biltong and droewors. For those not in South Africa, it's dried, cured strips of beef (or game), and dried pieces of a fattened sausage. Doesn't sound appealing, but it's really, really good, and an all time favourite of most South Africans of my culture.

10. Popcorn. Just plainly salted. Loads of salt, actually.